29 weeks, or This post is for you, Mom!
15 Feb 2012 Leave a Comment
Sorry we’ve been on hiatus from BlogLand for a while…my mom keeps asking about a new blog post since it’s been a few weeks, so here it is! Life has just been crazy busy this year–in fact, the only reason I have time to write this is because Alex and I are both home sick from work today. It would sound so much better to say that we’d been celebrating our first married Valentine’s Day and just lost track of time, but I passed out around 8:30 last night with a sinus infection and severe allergies. Have I mentioned that the building in which we work in under renovation? Apparently, so says the doc, my allergies are going haywire with all of the dust, etc. being stirred up by the crews. You’d think life would be calmer in a library, but it is not so. Due to the renovation, my library is moving (to a MUCH smaller space), so my assistant and I have had the added joy of figuring out where to put over 18,000 books and rooms full of equipment. Oh, and I forgot: the move takes place right before Spring Break, and if all goes according to schedule (insert laughter here), my assistant and I must unpack everything in the one day I have before Alex and I fly to India.
Work woes aside, I ended up not getting most of my documentation needed to file taxes, and am waiting for Blue Cross Blue Shield to reimburse me for this IVF cycle still (from August 2011). I had to laugh this week in frustration as BCBS sent me a letter saying my claim couldn’t be processed due to a missing itemized bill, when days before, I received a notice from them (complete with all photocopied paperwork, including bill) that they were missing a simple code. I will have to call them today, because we could really use that money…the last big payment approacheth soon. Sigh. I keep wondering when life is going to get easier, and then I think about next year–everything is up in the air. I’d really like to stay at home with the baby for a few years, but we can’t afford to stay in Maryland with just one income. And so we’ve been contemplating moving back to PA, near my parents, because I miss them, and the cost of living is cheaper–everything is cheaper there. I panic sometimes because we’d be going from a very comfortable income to a very small income…assuming Alex can find a job. This is a huge assumption to make these days with the economy what it is, so a lot depends on a lot. Basically, we just want a better life for our little family. Working in education, we are so worn down at the end of the day from dealing with other people’s (sometimes poorly-raised) children, and bureaucratic nonsense. We wonder how we’d have time for our child while working in education when we barely have time to be human and spend with each other. Sometimes I feel like we were born into the wrong decade or century–many people and the media these days seem to be focused on material goods and financial gain…we want to be comfortable, happy, and healthy…we just want a slower, simpler life.
I’ve also been stressing lately because we would love for Ariadne or Tristan to have a sibling, but my eggs are getting old at 37, and we simply can’t afford another cycle/surrogacy, especially if I am staying at home. We’ve thought seriously about international adoption (also quite expensive)…we are thankful for the awesome gift God is giving us of parenthood, of a biological child–if we’d lived in another time, this process would not have been available, and we are grateful. I can hear my mother saying, “Be thankful for what you have…” and we are. We’d just like for our child to have a brother or sister.
On the good news baby front: there was no mention on the last scan of the echogenic intracardiac focus, and the placenta is no longer low-lying! Thank you, God! We are thrilled that the baby and Sita are doing well…we have so many preparations to make yet, and time is going so quickly. We will be in India before we know it!
Congratulations to all of our fellow bloggers who have received great news, whose beautiful babies have been born, and our hearts go out to everyone who has gotten bad news. I’ve been trying to keep up with reading blog updates; I just haven’t been posting.
